"I want to go dancing tonight! I love to dance!"
But you feel so fat right now! None of your clothes will fit.
I tried on a few things, and yes, they felt too tight. It might be that I've gained some weight recently and it might be that I'm a bit bloated (I've been eating more fiber than normal).
I had two options - one, stay in on a Saturday night and isolate myself. Two - put on an outfit that does fit, dress up, put a smile on my face and go dancing! What would I do if I were as thin as I wanted to be? Of course I'd dance!
Can you guess which one I chose?
That's me!
One of the hardest parts of learning to embrace my body and following the program was that I had to live as if...I had the body I wanted. And eventually, by living that way, I did have the body I wanted. Sure I ended up losing some weight. But I also came to accept my body and enjoy it as it was. That changed my life.
That doesn't mean that it's always easy. I recently went through the worst year of my life - divorce, betrayal, a job I hated, and intense pressure from other sources. I found myself completely imbalanced, burnt out, and hungry all of the time. I also became very sad and I didn't have the time or energy to be active. My old behaviors (thoughts - self-defeating) came back to me. And I knew I was close to falling down the rabbit hole. But I chose NOT to. I reevaluated my life. I found a job that offers more flexibility (and pays less), I slept more, I started going to therapy. I found balance and I found my way back to intuitive eating via the embrace my body program.
What's funny is that, when I created EMB, I hadn't struggled with intuitive eating in years. I thought I'd never have issues again...boy was I wrong. I am SO THANKFUL I created EMB because now I am actually, humbly, using it again to find my way back to a healthy relationship with my body.
Hug yourself and GO DANCING!
Daniela Ketalam
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